When I first felt the inner pulse beckoning me to look for a greater truth in my life my attention was eventually drawn to two concepts, materialism and spiritualism. I really thought I was spiritually minded; after all I was questing for truth. I was pursuing a greater understanding of life but I really did not see anything about myself that needed improvement. The focus of my attention became drawn to the word selfish. I knew I wasn’t selfish. Even my friends considered me one of the most generous people around.
Over the years I continued to work on these concepts and denial came to my attention. I found out about ego, that I had a healthy one, that I had a strong sense of self importance. I insisted on my piece of life; after all I worked very hard, it was rightfully mine. I had a promising career on a famous street in Beverly Hills. I was certainly respectable. I dressed well, carried a briefcase, had a beautiful lady on my arm and we had many friends. I was considered intelligent and was well thought of. From all outward appearances I had it all together. But inside I was still churning. Something still was not right. And then finally it fell into place.
It dawned on me one day that I was selfish; everything about me and my life was based on materialism. I realized I was a great deceiver, even deceiving myself. When I looked back on my life with a more objective eye I saw a trail of destruction. My actions in the business world revolved around recognition and profit. I was responsible for my own achievements and my motivation was solely to make money. It is what this whole world is built on. I realized that if I wanted to live in a higher world I needed to develop a whole new way of thinking, a fourth dimensional concept. Everything about me was third dimensional.
In June of 2010 at the age of 59 and staring at limited financial resources, I left the business world and down deep I knew I was never going back. I had to solve my problems from a completely different perspective and I knew that the solutions to these problems were inside of me. That had to become more than an intellectual exercise; I had to make it work. My focus is now on service to others with information shared freely. I recognize and value the personal journey I am on, that everyone is on. I see life where we as individuals are responsible for each other; that we strive for personal and collective growth. Two years ago I began a writing project, the project of my dreams. I gave of my time freely without thought of remuneration. Somehow I am surviving financially. My life is now without stress and I am happier than I have ever been. The Unarius curriculum has and continues to serve me well.
Gary Kainz
Submitted by: Gary Kainz on 10/29/2013
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Dear Gary,
Your line “It dawned on me one day that I was selfish” shows a recognition most people never come to. Good for you! The majority don’t, won’t or can’t see themselves objectively and so they can’t work on improving themselves. Your new found happiness, your creative writing etc. show you are on the Love in Action pathway! Thanks for posting – Ken
Dear Kenneth
I believe it was 1986 when I made first contact and drove from LA to El Cajon quite often. You and your wife and son as I recall, were there at the time. Don’t know if we ever met but I remember you. Nice to see you here and thank you for your posting.
Gary
Hi Gary,
What a great post! It is the essence of what we are about as students growing in understanding of who we are as spiritual beings and not, I repeat not, as material beings wrapped up in obtaining accoutrements of the physical world. When we pass from the flesh, these things will become naught but thorns in the side as the time, energy and focus that we take to acquire things (or power over our fellow man) could of been better spent growing in the understanding of ourselves as spiritual beings and moving forward on our spiritual pathway and with that, of course, comes Peace of Mind.
Here is an excerpt from ICCC that I came across the other day that was helpful to me along those same lines. It is from Lesson 12, in the Q & A:
“Q – But that is just the way they go about it; we could not say that about everyone who drove a fine car, lived in a beautiful home, or enjoyed the bounty of the world?
A – There you are getting into a slightly different aspect. As Kung Fu said, “Truth is a many faceted gem”; we must look a little differently at that objectivism. We see people enjoying the luxury of the physical world, folks who seem to have all the material comfort of the world; and we know that person knows nothing about spiritual truth. How is it now? I am struggling along here and I have barely sufficient to get along? It simply means that you have widened the gap between you and that material world you live in and the spiritual world in which you are trying to enter. That is all; it merely means that man will at some time have to cover that same point in his evolution in a future day when he will need to compensate, where he shall need to compromise, where he shall have to tear down all those false structures that are built from material values and start building them up in the spiritual worlds. For a time he may be just like a small infant like so many of us are at the present time.”
Hello Gloria
I appreciate your comments. The passage from the Moderator that you refer to is right on for what I am learning. Sometimes I still get confused by all that life throws at me.
Gary
Dear Gary,
Your realizations about selfishness, ego and materialism are so compelling; these are not easy things for any of us to recognize. I think it’s inspiring that at the height of your business and material success, you walked away from it to choose a different path, a path to spiritualism rather than materialism, and found Unarius. Many in that position would have just kept on the path of material riches. A focus on service to others with free flow of information is truly the Infinite’s principle in action, and a positive journey to be on. Your last two lines sum up your contentment and happiness since studying Unarius, and a wonderful confirmation of the Moderator’s teachings. Thank you so much for sharing this with us.
Madilyn
Thank you for your comments Madilyn. It feels great to be here with you all….a place to share in peace and harmony!