It was nighttime and I was in my motel room in San Diego CA. I had just finished a very successful day at Neiman Marcus with a skincare line I was representing. My thoughts drifted back to legal problems I had encountered in North Dakota. Members of law enforcement had told me that they were keeping a bed warm for me, that I was a complete failure and doomed to a life behind bars. I left North Dakota determined to prove that prediction wrong. On this night I felt vindicated, I had established a foundation in California for a successful life. I thought that if I died tonight it would be okay, I had successfully overcome my problems. As I sipped on a beer I thought I could enter some spiritual realm with my head up and a smile on my face. I finished that beer and fell asleep.
In my dream I found myself totally immersed in a silvery-white energy field and I realized I was leaving my body. I also was feeling so incredibly euphoric, the greatest feeling I had ever experienced. It felt a thousand times better than sex. I was leaving physical life with no thought of looking back. As I traveled rapidly upward in this energy field I heard a gentle voice ask, “are you sure you have finished everything you need to do?” There was a split second of doubt in my mind and I woke up.
I desperately tried to fall asleep, to get back into that energy field. I
wanted nothing, absolutely nothing more to do with my physical life. Obviously I failed as I am sitting here in front of my computer some 30 years later writing about this incredible experience. Whether or not this was a thousand times better than sex I could not say for sure. It is the best I can do to describe what happened. I also described this as a kundalini experience but I am not exactly sure what that means. I do know that something within me, within my personal energy field changed dramatically that night. My gaze has been inclined upward ever since to a place I envision as my true home. A few months later I discovered Unarius and my rehabilitation shifted into gear.
Gary Kainz
Submitted by: Gary on 02/03/2015
Tagged with: Voice of Venus
Gary, good observation. I think that many of the pleasures in life are overrated 🙂 Good thing you stayed behind, I wouldn’t have met you in the physical to work things out
Hi Gary,
That dream sounds like a beautiful spiritual awakening and something surely did change dramatically within you after that transcendent experience! Perhaps you were shown this beautiful energy field by the Brothers so you’d have a glimpse of the magnificence of the Infinite, what you could strive to attain. Your mindset had been one of success that you had overcome problems (and you certainly had done that when you left North Dakota, that was a positive step) but the gentle voice guiding you back was presenting a necessary question about finishing everything you needed to do. It’s a question for all of us really (when I go to the Inner in my dreams I wish I could stay but within I know I must return for now to the earth plane). I truly understand your desire to try to get back to the energy field but in staying, listening to the questioning voice, you found Unarius and the guiding principles to step-up your evolution. And I have to agree with Roberto, very glad you did so we could meet up again this life for working things out.
I believe what you experienced could be aptly called a “kundalini experience,” from what I know of such, since it was an all-encompassing spiritual transcendence causing immense joy and bliss resulting in an awakening of the spirit (oh, I don’t doubt it was a thousand times better than sex). Thank you so much for sharing this with us!
Love and Light to you my friend,
Madilyn
Hello Roberto and Madilyn
I have learned much in the years since this experience and I am now aware that I have much work to do to continue building my home in the Upstairs. I am very patient with myself as I face life on a day to day basis. I appreciate all the exchanges, the workouts and I look forward to facing the challenge of tomorrow.
May the Great Mystery continue to inspire the both of you!
Gary
Congratulations, Gary!
When we truly desire a change, even if we don’t remember, moment by moment, that we do, it comes. Your awakening sounded somewhat intense, beautiful as well. I always enjoy an expansion of consciousness, subtle or intense, because its a healing and moves me further from the material world, so I understand your joy. Perhaps you have left behind the warm bed reserved for you, as well as the situation that caused it to be!
Stay on the journey to higher dimensions, concepts, and measures of love we haven’t yet known.
Na’imah
Dear Gary,
Judging from the pathway you’re on now, I would say that was a very sex-cessful wake-up call!!…Ken.